So i'm in the middle of my 4th...yes FOURTH sinus infection. In 2 months. I barely have time to stop taking the antibiotics and then i'm sick again. This time, it hit hard. My weak immune system was pretty much nothing and i got bombarded with the sinus infection, and a cold, and some respiratory junk. Basically, I want to rip my lungs OUT and head OFF.
I had a family contact me before Halloween about photographing their childs birthday/big family holiday party December 17th. I agreed. I've been so sick, but I had been on antibiotics for 2 days, and I had to do it. It was too late to cancel.
So off I went in the 45 degree weather and danced around the Wright house grounds for 2.5 hours snapping away. I think the family will be pleased. It was beautifully decorated (very lavish if i'm being honest!!), they had a green screen, santa and mrs clause as well as 2 elves...me, and a face painter. It was a production!!
I drove back home, and curled up on my couch in my jammies.
And i've been doing that since. Poor Nash. I feel like I've been a crappy mom the last couple months. With me being so sick, we havent been outside much...you know...like hardly EVER. I'm my harshest critic and worst enemy. I feel like I should be at a certain standard and I never seem to reach it, no matter how hard I try. Maybe I just keep raising the bar for myself...without even knowing about it.
I dont know.
Right now, i'm trying to get healthy enough to enjoy Christmas with my family. Nash is old enough this year to get really into opening gifts and playing with toys. I dont want to be miserable/look miserable in the video/pictures/my memory. Thankfully, Nash wont have permanent memory for awhile. Maybe by then I'll have my act together. And a working immune system.