Nash-isms as of late

This kid is SUCH  a freaking crack up.

I never want him to grow up dangit.

Some of his more funny sayings from ONE sunday evening at my parents house:



(while playing cards with the grown ups)"Momma, you need pacific (specific) cards!"

"Dont worry, I'm gonna read the constructions (instructions)".

"Jace: WHAT HAVE YOU DONE FOR THE LAST 30 MINTUES?!"
"Nash: (so innocently) I ate 2 green beans!"

"When you have a heart attack, your heart explodes momma".

"Me: Say it higher...
Nash: ...higher."

"Papa isnt too old....hes still kind of new."

(Singing "Be what i believe" a song for the primary program) "Like Nephi versavere!" (persevere)

A first....missed.

Nash had his first primary program as a sunbeam today. He has been practicing and practicing his songs, memorized his little part, and was SO excited.

Jace's parents happened to be in town and were there along with my parents, who are in the ward as well. Nash was over the moon about this.

The only problem is that I'm in senior primary as a teacher. My seat on the stand was directly behind the organ so not only could I not see nash at all, I also couldn't hear him. I could see jace and his parents laughing and it hit me...this is my ONLY child...this is a first for him and for us...and I missed it.

I was devastated actually. Because who knows if I'll have more kids. This might have been my only shot to see my kid perform for the first time. I could barely keep it together for the next 2 hours of church. I immediately came home and just sobbed and sobbed.

I was also frustrated because a few people who I'm sure meant well and were just trying to joke around, approached me with sarcasm about nash's singing and exuberance. I already was on edge and that kind of pushed me to the edge.

No one told ME that he was adorable or cute or that he must have been practicing. I was told, "wow...cant you put a cork in him? Trust me...everyone in the whole church heard him.. hes loud" or "he sure is enthusiastic especially for not knowing all the words." My heart was breaking already and that did it.

I didn't get a cute picture like I wanted, and I didn't get to just enjoy the program. I feel so sad about it. I missed seeing him and hearing him...in his first primary program. But I know that he rocked it. My sweet boy.

Thick of "it"

Hey all.

Been a hot minute (or you know 2 months) since I wrote on here.

Just living life...and in the thick of it.

Jace applied for a promotion at work, and seemed to be a shoe in...only to find out yesterday he didnt get it. :/ That promotion would have meant the world to our little family...not only for the pay increase which would have been amazing, but it would have meant that we would get to see Jace more since he wouldnt HAVE to work a second job like hes doing now.

I'm also going to share something that I wasnt planning on, but for my own record keeping I'm going to. In January this year we started fertility again and stopped in May when nothing was working and we found out I'm going to need surgery...again.

...Thats been...hard. We already waited 2 years because of Jace's addiction, trauma, and needing our family to heal. Wanting something so badly and not being able to have it, especially when its a righteous desire...oh man. Its rough. Hearing about everyone...literally EVERYONE becoming pregnant has been very hard too.

I loved President Nelsons 10 day social media fast for that fact alone (there was so much good that came about because of it as well), but i wasnt seeing everyone posting things that made me equal parts happy for them, and devastated for me.

I've entered my busy work season. I am SO grateful for my returning clients and all the new clients I'm getting. Heavenly Father has been answering my prayers thats for sure.
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Nash is busy busy at preschool and LOVES spending time with all the kids. He is really excited for Halloween (he gets to be Iron Man!) He gets to spend time with his Gramma and Papa alot while I work and is developing a cute relationship with them. He got to go to his first pumpkin patch with me and my mom yesterday and LOVED it!

Thor is healthy! We almost lost him in September due to a weird stomach virus. He is gigantic and gets on my nerves alot, but we also love him. He is 6 months old and still has alot of growing (physically and in maturity levels) to do!

And thats it. Thats what we are up to.