Sunday, December 29, 2013

Complaining

I woke up Christmas morning SICK.

Not as sick as I have been in previous Christmas'...but sick nonetheless.

Turns out it was the year of sickness this Christmas.

Jace's whole family save him and his sister and her husband got sick.

4 of the 5 nieces and nephews have pneumonia.

In my family, the only one really sick other than me was my niece Jane. I've been staying clear of them because Randy gets sick so easy.

Now, me? Pregnant women cant really take much medicine. So I had to wait till the 26th and I called my OB to ask what they wanted me to take. Their suggestion? Anything with Tylenol. BOO.

So for the next 5 days I have been taking my Tylenol cold and flu medicine every 4 hours like clockwork. Saturday I got way worse. I added a humidifier (which hasnt been working) and vicks vapor rub. My symptoms changed and got a little worse today. I cant really breathe which in turn cant be good for the baby. My OB's office opens tomorrow and I'll call and see what they say...I'm getting super nervous because instead of getting better, I'm getting worse.

And when I tried to take a warm shower to help me breathe, we discovered that our hot water is out. WHAT?

Oh an in other news the promotion that Jace interviewed for--the one they made him think he was going to get?? They sent a generic email saying he didn't get it :(

And while I have lots of great things going for me: the pregnancy, feeling Nash move, a great husband who  thankfully isn't sick, I have a comfortable home, and a good job (if I'm ever healthy enough to get back to it), and a lovely family.

Sorry for complaining...I know I have it good. I'm just sick and tired of being sick and tired. Also, I'm getting really worried the longer I'm sick.

Saturday, December 28, 2013

24 Weeks!



How far along? 24 Weeks 4 days
Total weight gain/loss:  10 lbs! Holy cow.
Maternity clothes? Yes and LOVING them
Stretch marks? Yep
Sleep: Falling asleep everywhere. But once I wake up, its hard to go back to sleep.
Best moment this week: Hit 6 months on Christmas!!
Have you told family and friends: Yes!
Miss Anything? Advil. Being able to get up fast if I need to...
Movement: Yes! Not all the time, and mostly while I'm falling asleep.
Food cravings: ...super unhealthy food.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Smoke. Any kind. Fish. Any kind.
Have you started to show yet: Yes!
Gender: Boy!
Labor Signs: No
Belly Button in or out? In-ish...its half out right now...
Wedding rings on or off? On...but they are getting tight.
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy
Looking forward to: Getting our maternity pictures back from Lauren!!!

Thursday, December 26, 2013

23 Weeks!


How far along? 23 Weeks 5 days
Total weight gain/loss:  10 lbs! Holy cow.
Maternity clothes? Yes and LOVING them
Stretch marks? Yep
Sleep: Falling asleep everywhere. But once I wake up, its hard to go back to sleep.
Best moment this week: Jace felt Nash move!!
Have you told family and friends: Yes!
Miss Anything? Advil. Being able to get up fast if I need to...
Movement: Yes! Not all the time, and mostly while I'm falling asleep.
Food cravings: ...super unhealthy food.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Smoke. Any kind. Fish. Any kind.
Have you started to show yet: Yes!
Gender: Boy!
Labor Signs: No
Belly Button in or out? In-ish...its half out right now...
Wedding rings on or off? On...but they are getting tight.
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy
Looking forward to: Christmas!!
(this was supposed to be posted before Christmas...oh well. best laid plans, right?--Week 24 will be up ASAP)

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Already boring him

So I hardly feel any movement from my little man during the day.
 
I'm already boring him!!!
 
Although...i cant say i really blame him.
 
I'm sitting stationary for the better part of 8 hours a day--
my preferred option would be to take a nap too.
 
But come on Nash! Momma loves to feels those wiggles...no matter how small they are!

22 Weeks!



How far along? 22 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss:  8-9 lbs up
Maternity clothes? Yes and LOVING them
Stretch marks? Yep
Sleep: Falling asleep everywhere. But once I wake up, its hard to go back to sleep.
Best moment this week: Getting my hair done since i was 8 weeks along!
Have you told family and friends: Yes!
Miss Anything? Advil. Being able to get up fast if I need to...
Movement: Maybe?!
Food cravings: ...super unhealthy food.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Smoke. Any kind. Fish. Any kind.
Have you started to show yet: Yes!
Gender: Boy!
Labor Signs: No
Belly Button in or out? In-ish...its half out right now...
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Moody to be sure this week.
Looking forward to: Christmas and a couple days off work. Too bad thats still 2 weeks away!

Genes

 
When i think of my genes my mind automatically used to go to:
 
  • My blonde hair.
  • My blue eyes.
  • My big smile and used to be crooked teeth.
  • My feet that stopped growing when i was 12.
  • My height that stopped when I was 12 too.
  • My itty bitty teeny tiny fingers/hands that crack everyone up when they actually look at them.
  • My voice.
  • My little bit crooked nose.
  • My ears--not quite as big as my dads...
  • My feet and their weirdness (thanks grannie).


Well, just over 7 years ago my mom got breast cancer. That is not news to anyone who has read this blog. But what we realized was that all of us kids were possible cancer candidates now. And then when we looked back through my mom's immediate family we realized that there must be a cancer gene in there somewhere because:
  • My grandpa had prostate cancer that eventually took him.
  • My aunt had cancer when little and then it came back to her pancreas as an adult and took her.
  • My uncle developed colon cancer which then spread to his whole body and took him.
  • My mom had breast cancer, but thankfully is still here with us.
There is a test that is fairly recently available for those to find out about "the breast cancer/ovarian cancer genes". You have to be in very specific circumstances for your insurance to help cover it, and if they dont its wicked expensive. Well, a few years ago, my mom was able to take her genetic testing since she had breast cancer already and it was super aggressive. It turns out that she WAS NOT positive for the breast cancer gene, but WAS positive for the ovarian cancer gene. Since she had such aggressive cancer already, they decided to do a hysterectomy right away to take away that possibility of more cancer for her.
 
 
Since finding out she WAS positive for that gene...that got all of us "worried" and thinking again about how we all were now at a 50/50 shot of having that particular gene. My brothers and I qualify for our insurance to help cover the cost of the testing since it was our mother who had the gene AND she had already had cancer.
 
This year, I have met my part of our deductible for our insurance doing fertility treatments...so we knew that this would be the time to get the testing done for me.
 
I got my results back yesterday and I am positive for the same mutation that my mom has.
 
We arent sure yet what this means for my forseeable future, but we do know my future holds a hysterectomy in it.
 
Still trying to process the information and not let it freak me out.
My monday kicked my booty yesterday and that news was the cherry on top.

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Only half way

Today I realized that I'm only half way through this week.

Its only Wednesday.

I have felt sick since Monday.

I have been grouchy since Sunday.

I have had a sore back since 2 weeks ago.

I have also been screamed at and cussed out 3 times in 3 working days.

I have cried to my mom, my brother, and my husband once each.

I have drowned my sorrows in a liter (yes, dont judge) of pepsi.

I miss my brother Joe and dont get to talk to him for another 2 weeks.

I also dont get to see my baby boy again until after the new year.

I'm so over this week, and yet...I'm only half way.

Bah hambug.

Monday, December 9, 2013

21 Weeks!



How far along? 21 Weeks and 4 Days
Total weight gain/loss:  7-8 lbs up
Maternity clothes? Yes and LOVING them
Stretch marks? Yep
Sleep: Sleeping better since i've started propping myself up on pillows
Best moment this week: Finding out the gender of our sweet baby BOY!!!
Have you told family and friends: Yes!
Miss Anything? Advil. I have a feeling that isnt going to change...
Movement: Maybe?!
Food cravings: ...super unhealthy food.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Smoke. Any kind. Fish. Any kind.
Have you started to show yet: Yes!
Gender prediction: Boy!
Labor Signs: No
Belly Button in or out? In-ish...started popping out...which is...weird.
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: I started feeling super overwhelmed this week. Holidays and work, ya know?
Looking forward to: Buying our first boy things! We've held off on buying anything until we knew the gender for sure!

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Peace

I've found myself slipping into some of my not so lovely tendencies of anxiety and stress.
 
I'm pregnant. Which apparently can make you anxious and stressed out. Who knew?
 
We are also smack dab in the middle of the holidays...which are always a stresser.
 
This year, I'm experiencing what alot of mom's and dad's must experience...the stress of finding the time. And in "finding the time", I include "finding peace".
 
Finding time has never really been an issue for me. Generally, I have had fairly easy jobs that allowed me as much time as I wanted/needed to get my house clean, my dishes scrubbed, my house decorated in record time, presents bought and wrapped, dinner made, lessons planned, letters written, friends called, dates planned and executed, and peace found (in reading my scriptures, going to the temple, visiting family at the cemetary, and JUST BEING).
 
Now, I work everyday from 8:30-6 PM. I'm exhausted just from sitting all day. I'm unmotivated. My body aches, and trying to deal with unhappy people all day has left me drained and frusterated. Its dark when I leave...like crazy dark. Which makes it hard to want to try and clean or make dinner. It feels like any time I have to myself (for a bath, to read a book, to sit quietly) is selfish and unattainable. My brain is on constant overload. Instead of looking at my home and seeing what needs to get done and then jumping in and just DOING it...i have looked around, felt so overwhelmed that I just sit and stare and wonder how i'm going to manage when I have this little man.
 
But then I remember the thing that I'm missing the most. The peace. Finding the time for peace. Making sure I have a few minutes, or an hour...to sit quietly and ponder. To listen for the Spirit to whisper answers or questions to me. To feel God's love for me.
 
And I know I cant be the only one. In the world we live in, its sure hard to "find the time" for anything, let alone to "find the time to just BE, and be at PEACE."
 
I think we should all try to remember that the THINGS can wait. So what if I'm not completely decorated for Christmas yet? So what if I have almost no glasses to drink out of because they are all dirty and in the sink? So what if things are different. There is one thing that shouldnt wait, its connecting with our Heavenly Father and making sure we are listening for the path that we should be taking...that we should be taking the time for PEACE.
 
Just a thought. Random, I know.

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Its...A...

Well, if you follow me on Facebook or Instagram you'll have seen that we didnt wait as long as we were going to tell our families the gender!!
 
Everyone had conflicts on the days we were trying to get everyone together...and so my brother Jeff convinced me to throw together a VERY VERY last minute "reveal party" for our immediate families.
 
 
 
Jace wanted a cake so bad, so even though I only had an hour and a half--I baked and decorated the ugliest cake ever. HA. seriously. It was bad, but tasted great! :)
 
We were going to use the cake as the reveal part, but since it looked so bad I went out and bought the grandma's christmas ornaments that were in the color of the gender! (you know, blue or pink).
 
The grandmas opened them at the same time and we discovered that...we...are...having...a....
 
 
 
 
BOY!
 
Nash Cameron Hunt is going to be one very loved kid!