Thursday, July 2, 2015

Dont want to forget...

Nash is growing and changing at such a rapid pace.

I thought he transitioned from newborn to baby quickly...the transition from baby to toddler is even faster!

He is such a busy boy. He is so curious. Always exploring. Always asking to read a thousand books. Wanting to watch his signing time. Wanting to go to grammas and see her and papa and the kitties. Wanting to jump in the pool. (which he does!) Asking for things correctly. Copying me, noises I make or hand gestures. Saying something over and over until he finally feels that he has said it correctly. Folding his arms by himself when we say its time for prayer and then saying Amen after.

The other day was a pretty frustrating one. Nothing was seeming to go right. I went to the bathroom for 1 minute. I could hear nash in the kitchen. I came out and see that he has taken papers that were on the counter and thrown them all around the room and was stuffing a few into the garbage can. So I clean that up and tell him that we dont do that. Then I needed to call Jace and talk to him about something with our mortgage. I was looking at a paper to give him a phone number when I looked to my left and nash has taken most of our kitchen garbage out and thrown it all over the floor--right before he was able to push the whole can over. CRAZY. So, as I was cleaning up THAT delightful mess, he walks over to our carport door, stands on his tippy toes....AND OPENS IT AND TRIES TO ESCAPE! Are you kidding me kid??

As frustrating as all that just reminded me that he is growing up. And while that is fun and exciting...I'm going to miss my little man. 

Sunday, June 28, 2015

Under Construction!!

Hey everyone,

So. My life is crazy right now. Ive got ALOT going on.

One of those things is super exciting!

I finally am opening up my home salon!! We are under construction right now...busy with the remodel, but its going to be great! I'll have a space all "my own" and have it be FUNCTIONING! With everything going on with physical labor, I was struggling with getting everything right. The name, the background, the vision. Its all come together.

SO. Without further ado, let me introduce you to my new hair business...

I'm over the moon. Its combining the two things that I've grown quite passionate about!! I love doing hair. I do. I love making someone feel better about themselves. I love taking photos--capturing a moment in time, preserving that memory and having it make you happy. Its all about feeling good in my book!!!

In the next week or so, I'll have a price list up and services offered. I will be specializing in formal hair (bridals, wedding parties, dances, etc) and family and children's portraits! My hope as well, is to add glamour shoots to my resume. 

Thank you for being there for me and for supporting me in my endeavors. You don't know how much it means to me!! 

Tuesday, June 23, 2015


Over the last week I was given multiple reassurances from different people.

Some who knew the struggles I have been going through.

Others who had no clue.

One was from my Heavenly Father--as I prepared my talk that I gave ON Father's day on how I have developed a personal relationship with my Heavenly Father--I was given strength, comfort, and in my minds eye a spiritual hug from my Father. The talk went well, it all came together which was a miracle in itself.

In the middle of one of the hardest times I've gone through, I'm comforted to know that I am not alone, and that I am being led to better times by a Father who loves me. I have felt his Spirit on more times than I can count lately.

Second, was from an old friend who I haven't seen in person in about 10 years. She reached out to me, and let me know that she looked up to me and that she loved me. I love that girl. Whitni--you are one of the best people I know.

And third was yesterday. Nash has been very sick since Thursday. On Friday he was given a steroid shot to help him breathe better. Yesterday was his 15 month well check, and his doctor diagnosed him with croup and a stomach virus. Nash is in the 25th percentile for weight, 65th for height, and 50th for head circumference. He is talking, signing words, walking/running, and climbing things. His doctor was quite pleased. As he was leaving, he looked at me and said, "I just want you to know that you're doing a great job. Nash was a hard baby. I've been with you since the day he was born and through all the ups and downs he has had. Most people would look at you and say, "all babies are hard" or "you are just making it worse than it really is", but I want you to know--that as a doctor--Nash has been a HARD BABY. You've taken what was thrown at you well, you went with things and dealt with them as they presented themselves. I just want you to know that I am proud of you."

Holy crap. I love that pediatrician so much.

Its nice to be reassured that I'm doing what I'm supposed to and the best I can, especially when others make it seem like that is not the case.

Wednesday, June 17, 2015

Of course

It always seems that as I'm going through my biggest trials in life, Heavenly Father knows just when to reach out to remind me that He is there and aware of what I'm going through.

2 weeks ago, while I'm still in the midst of the crappiest I've been feeling, I got a call from the councelor in the bishopric asking Jace and I to talk in church...ON FATHERS DAY...about HOW I HAVE DEVELOPED OR CAN DEVELOP A CLOSE RELATIONSHIP WITH MY HEAVENLY FATHER.

Of course.

Nothing like MAKING you sit and think about the most important things to make you realize that sometimes you just gotta "buck up" and move on.

Thursday, June 4, 2015


Right after we moved into our new home something happened.

I've never felt more hurt, scared, angry, or sad in my entire life.

I am trying to be strong for the sake of my baby boy, who understands WAY too much.

I am trying to rely on my Savior because honestly, that's all I can think of to help.

And it has.

It has been a long month. Actually long is an understatement. But I believe there is light at the end of this dark tunnel.

Until I can really breathe and function again, please forgive me if I'm a bit absent from this blog.

This is a way I journal and while I'm tempted to write about my pain here, I feel like it is too personal for the internet to have.


Thursday, April 23, 2015

Home. April 2015.

Jace and I bought a house today. Signed, sealed, and delivered. 
We are pretty stoked.

Monday, April 6, 2015

Easter 2015

This year Easter was interesting.

First, it was General Conference for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I love Conference so much...even more so now as a mother. Its also about a zillion times harder to watch and glean things from conference when you have a little one yelling in your ear, pulling your hair, wanting food, needing a diaper change or a nap. But oh so worth it!! Some of my favorite quotes:

Saturday night my older brother ended up needing to go to the hospital. I drove my parents and loaded randy up and dropped them off around 2 AM. They spent the majority of Easter Sunday in the ICU with my brother. My other brother and his family came over, finished conference, went and saw mine and jaces new house! :), took some Easter pictures of the kids, and then I made French toast for dinner. It was sad that Randy and my parents weren't home for most of the day, but when they come home we'll get to watch conference over with them and talk about all the great things we learned.
 I know that my Redeemer lives!!

Now enjoy pictures of our cute kids....