Friday, November 21, 2014

Heavy Heart

2 weeks ago, Jace's cousin Dallin was in a bad accident.

He is a cowboy and was wrangling a cow...and he fell off his horse and then the horse rolled over him. He was finally life flighted to St. George Utah where he lay in a coma from a brain injury with 2 collapsed lungs, broken ribs, etc.

His wife of 2 years was at her baby shower in Northern Utah for their first baby due in January.

The doctors were able to re inflate the lungs, but the swelling of his brain made them uneasy. We received a text letting us know there was a possibility that he might never wake up. It was better for them to keep him sedated in the coma---hoping to allow the brain to heal.

His levels have been up and down over the last 2 weeks. Finally the neurologist said that he needed an MRI to check on the brain. The news was devastating. Dallin was brain dead. (I've gotten most of my information from my husband so those were his words). Dallin is an organ donor so they were going to take him off his medications and let things take their course while still keeping him on the ventilator (for his organs). The issue that they were concerned with is that his body may try to breathe on his own and then they couldn't do anything. He would be stuck in that vegetative state, not able to wake up.

I just got a text that Dallin's body is in fact trying to breathe, so they are taking him off the ventilator at 2 PM.

My heart aches for Aunt Tammy and Uncle Brad. Their other children Tiffany, Autumn, April, Logan, and Shaina. And mostly for his wife Carissa and their unborn child.

But even with a heavy heart---how grateful I am for the knowledge of eternal families. How wonderful to know that he is with our Heavenly Father---out of pain and away from suffering. Dallin will be a huge asset to Heaven, doing the work of our Lord. And you can bet that he will be his family's guardian angel--and that he will get to spend some time with his son in Heaven before he is born. Dear Hunt family, I love you.

"Peace. Be still."

If anyone would like to contribute to helping with medical costs and funeral costs :( Here is the link to the the gofundme account Dallin and Carissa

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

A million years later...

Why hello blog world,

I forgot what my blog was for awhile. I've been trying to survive. LOTS of stuff has gone on since my last post.

I was in a dark, scary place there for awhile. I didnt know what to do. I had no answers.

Well, first things doctor put me on a depression medication. He didnt think I was super depressed or anything, but it could head there if things continued on the path they were going (or got worse). I dont know if that has really helped or not, but things have been a bit better.

Nash seemed to be doing well on the liquid gold formula. It has been insane to try to budget it because his eating habits vary so often...we have spent about 2 semesters worth of college on formula so far. But hes gaining weight. And happy for the most part. So its worth it.

Last you read, nash stopped doing anything because he was concentrating on his pain and we were waiting for his scope. The scope was done---the lining of the esophagus and stomach looked good (no damage from the reflux) but his bowels. Oh my. They were clogged with poop. His poor digestive system is ALL messed up and the GI thinks that is the big problem--including his reflux. He said that if the poop doesnt go OUT, then the food will go UP. Hence his horrible reflux. So in conjunction with Nash's 2 different reflux medications, he is now given a stool softener twice a day, and I give him a glycerin suppository at least 3 times a day to help him go. Its a constant battle that most days I feel like we are still losing. We'll go in at the new year to get him checked up again by the GI.

Nash is still not eating a ton of formula. We are lucky now to be getting him to drink 4 ounces a feeding. Because of this he still wakes up a TON at night because he is HUNGRY. I'll deal with it though if it means he'll go back to sleep. We've gotten our schedules mixed up again...he is staying up until 2 or 3 AM and then after waking up a few times to eat, sleeping in until noon. I dont know how I'm going to fix this. All i know is that I'm not caring enough to rock the boat at the moment.

Nash is GROWING like a weed! At his 6 month appointment he was about 17 pounds! He eats lots of baby foods--loves PEARS, BLUEBERRIES, AND CARROTS the most. The only thing he has not liked that he has tried was refried beans. He hated those. He has 2 bottom teeth that are adorable and sharper than heck. He is currently in 6-9 month clothes and pretty much has outgrown his 6 month jammies. He LOVES his stuffed animals (squirt from nemo, a small horse, cookie monster, and his elephant). The color he seems to gravitate to is RED. He LOVES music toys (my mom and dad have a couple that he just cant get enough of). On Halloween he sat unsupported for the first time. He now will sit up by himself for long periods of time and can finally sit in the bathtub. HALLELUJAH! He LOVES bathtime and frquently tries to sneak into the bathroom and sit by the tub. He has found his penis and holds onto it during diaper changes. Oh boys. He pulls himself up to things now! His aunt Jamie lent us a table that plays music and lights up and once he saw that it was over! He started doing that around November 10th. He still doesnt nap well, but we'll get there. He loves being outside--especially with his papa wight. He also will sit and watch football and baseball with papa wight. He loves to be rocked. He is most definitely a momma's boy and I'm 100% over the moon about that. His first word was mom, but now says "da da da da" for all other words. He got his 2 flu shots and with the second booster he didnt even CRY!

My SIL Melanie had her baby on the 20th of September--Samantha Lynn (almost exactly 6 months younger than Nash)

Jace got the promotion to service manager at the bank!

We celebrated 5 years of marriage.

Nash was a shark for Halloween (of course!)

Jace's cousin Elise lost her baby Cole (he had trisomy 13) :(, and his other cousin Dallin was in a horrible accident and is currently in a coma. We are grateful for the knowledge of eternal families and know that with God all things are possible.

And we are in the process of buying a house. In the middle of the holidays. We are smart people.

So my life is Nash and packing up our apartment at the moment. I will catch up on some posts that I have sitting in my draft folder, but I'm insanely busy and I don't know when he'll sleep long enough for me to do that. For now, I'll leave you with a couple of recent pictures that I took for our Christmas card as well as my parents and brother's Christmas cards.